LETTING GO

My departure draws near, Wednesday, and I am busy wrapping things up and attempting to bring a conclusion to the experience just as I have concluded the manuscript. Thats right, 300 plus pages of ranting, confessing, musing, crying, plotting, scheming, screaming, scraping, analyzing, shifting, shaping has come to a conclusion, I found my ending. I must admit it feels good. I feel free from much of what I put down on the page, like it exists in the story now and I'm not carrying it all around in my head. Now I let it sit for a month, completely ignoring it and hopefully coming back to find something that has taken on a life of its own and it is then my job to attune to its needs and mold and shape. I have birthed this monstrous creation and now have to let it grow and eventually (still need to tweak, edit, tweak, edit) I will have to let it go.

To love anything, to truly let it shine on its own, I believe you have to let go. We find grounding, comforting, cherished things and places and we instinctively desire to squeeze them tightly to us, guarding them and preserving them. You discover an inspiring piece of art and sometimes you feel as if sharing it and letting it go from the personal relationship you share with it will diminish its magic. Also, you meet and get to know an amazing person, who burns bright and whose heat energizes and illuminates your world and the initial desire is to possess that person, keep them to yourself. Let it go. I think just let go of the possession, the protection, have faith in their freedom. I am tempted to cling to the immense stability of this retreat, this cabin because of all the health and peace I have found, but what good is it to keep it all shut in.

Here is something I have clung to as a great secret source of inspiration over the past months, a music video by the Icelandic band Sigur Ros. I share it now, sharing the stoke as they say when teaching new people to surf. The video, I believe, shows the journey we all share, often just unsure children underneath it all, making our way to the next place and if we do so with generosity and communion maybe together we can find the courage to let go of the stable ground and soar.

Do to copyright requests please click here to watch this incredible piece of art.

I am preparing one more blog post and then that is the conclusion. On to the next place.